To be Honest

I really miss those days being together with her. Although is the short 3 months but everything seems so beautiful.

Correct??

Jackson :-)

Urh!!!!!

Damn ankle giving me problems again!!! When can my ankle recover!!!! FML!!!! @&$)(;/#%^*

Wish list

When it comes to birthday wishes, everyone will have before hand had their wish list all think through their head and write it down some where hoping that one of this listed items will come true..

Well for me I only have one very simple wish in my list and I hope it could be met.. Everyone who reads my blog would have know who I will be referring to. But the fact that no one now knows that this blog is alive again and basically I am talking to my self on my own personal space where I write down all my happiness and sad stuff here.. So I'm the only person who I am writing to. That will be her.

My wish will be giving me that tiny litte chance for me to see her and have a very very very long hug!!! Yes I love hugs especially when it comes from someone who means alot to you.. Someone who can make you smile when she appears and accompany you when you are having the down period. Yes that is my wish. But a wish is just a wish.. It might not even come true at all
A wish is just a wish!

Jackson

Ouch!

Been 2 months.. Yes 2 full months since i last did my home physio for my ankle... Today my leg/ankle fail me again. Coming back home with painful ankle. I bet after waking up tomorrow, My ankle will be swollen and pain. Sign i think there goes my ankle...

Should I stop playing sports?

If I stop playing sports [Basketball], I do not know what to do already. Hmm maybe swimming, but its just so boring.. So much of problems. WHY can't my ankle just be good enough and not fail me. PLEASE!!! I think all basketballer problem will either be ankle or knee. What should i do?

Stop playing or continue!!!

Doctor told me that i am able to do slow jog but i went to play basketball instead. Am i stubborn or just seaking for adventure! the trill of making the basket!! But its not fun when you are lying flat on the ground! Thats for real. I have experience twice before and both times being sent to hospital.. That wasnt fun at all because you know you will not be able the same again once you are in the ambulance!

LET MY ANKLE HEAL!!!

Jackson

Regrets?

Cherish what you have now and not missing when it is gone! Well I think maybe it's just about myself that cause "this" to happen! I always say I will reflect but it seems like it is not working. I wanted to let go but I just can't.. Thinking and thinking of her everyday no matter how busy I am I will still close my eyes for a moment and think of all the happy stuff that we did together. It's just too beautiful which I can't resist of not thinking.

Jackson

Random

Today my mum was so random when we were walking to the bus stop. "Boy your that girlfriend that time come to your house and bring you go hospital never come already ar?" I totally came to a silence. I do not know how to answer so I just kept walking she then later asked, "No more already is it? You don't want her huh!" I just kept walking an my bus came so I just board the bus.

Is not that I do not want to answer her question. Is that I do not know how to answer! I was thinking deep in my heart. Is not that I don't want her, is I can't have her no matter how hard I tried but everything just seems not right. In fact nothing seems right for me.. I think the problem lies with me and shall not blame others as there are no one to be blame. :-) well I guess that's life and it's unfair and it will never be fair. No matter what I still miss her!!!

Jackson

To have but not to hold

Love is just so amazing don't you think? It can bring to a world of happiness where he/she can never imagine.. But what goes around comes around.. It can also bring you sadness and pain where you can never imagine. It's just so amazing.

Jackson

Long long time

It have really been very very long since I last log in to this blog and start blogging. Just does know why I feel like bogging now after all these time I have been so lazy to type anything on the blog. Maybe is because I can't really post what I wish to say on Facebook. Well that's the bad part of the Facebook and everyone gets to see what you type..Hmm it have been lots of ups and downs for the past 4 months for me.. But this 4 month have been my happiest moments I have ever in my life. Although it's a short 4 months but there are lots of memories be it good or bad I still treasure it and it will start in my heart forever as this person have found the key to my heart but I can't seem to find hers maybe that's the reason I lost her.. Well.. What meant to be yours will be yours no matter how hard you try. Always do things with no regrets and I have no regrets in getting to know her for only a short 4 months. Yesterday watch Mr Popper's Penguin and memorries flash back when I first saw the penguin. If you ask me do I still miss her after she choose not to get in contact with me. My answer will be yes! No second answer.. And why? Maybe I still love her even though it's like 4 months only what love can you talk about with just 4 freaking months? Well... What I believe is that love is so amazing that you can do almost anything for the opposite party.. People will say that I am stupid to do all those for knowing a girl only 4 months.. I don't think so.. Because that's LOVE!

Love is just amazing!

Jackson